Soliloquy

Thu, 15 Jan 2009 04:04:56 GMT

I don't know how you guys feel about this band, but Spill Canvas is really striking a chord with me tonight.

Mon, 12 Jan 2009 02:28:32 GMT

My ear hurts too much no fair! Seriously, even the slightest bit of weight on it, like my hair tucked behind my ear, is not good. And it's itchy grr!

Talked to drama majors last night who gave me mad amounts of insight towards auditions and the like. The main bit of good news that I'd like to share is that UofT accepts people into the school based on GRADES before considering people for programs, like the Drama program. What does this mean for me? A 92% is going to get me accepted to school even if I'm rejected ! I thought that if I applied for drama and was rejected that was it, better luck next time. Apparently this is not true. Uuuuuuugh that's such excellent news!

Other than that... Mike Mackinnon, one of those drama majors, gave me a whole bunch of information on Ryerson, but being one of the UofT students he wasn't able to give me too much... more of what not to do, which is, in itself, pretty damn useful.

In terms of UofT auditions, there are a bunch of workshops that I'm going to go to that will hopefully give me an advantage. The audition for UofT is "come dressed in comfortable, appropriate clothes." From what I can tell this is going to be a bunch of serious, hardcore, life-or-death improv games. Like, "come into the circle and say your name." "Speak this line with presence." The difference being that we will be judged on EVERYTHING WE DO. And okay, it's an audition, so of course that will happen. I just hope I'm not flippant about it because of, I don't know, the retardation of CIG.

I need bunches of monologues, an essay that will be a bit of a challenge, a 3 minute play, and a resume. I think I'm doing a George F. Walker monologue and a Greek monologue. We're supposed to do classical, and I do NOT want to do Shakespeare. Thinking of doing Habitiat for the 3 minute play, just because we studied it so intensly this year.

Anyway, yeah. Auditions are soooooooon!

Mon, 12 Jan 2009 01:17:05 GMT

I talked to a drama major this weekend who doesn't know who Edward Albee is. He doesn't even know Zoo Story. He's really smart and stuff, but... that just floored me.

More extensive university post coming later.

Wed, 07 Jan 2009 12:34:00 GMT

So, my computer won't turn on, which means not only can I not call Christopher RIGHT FUCKING NOW but I also can't call him tonight, and all my documents are ON THERE which means I will have to retype them all out... Thankfully, I printed everything off, but THAT DOESN'T FUCKING MATTER.

FUCK.

It was working last night just fine. Unless I downloaded some fucked up virus when downloading Garbage music. Yes, and I am also completely without MY GODDAMN MUSIC. I made sure it was plugged in this morning, and tried different outlets, and it won't fucking turn on. Like, it's absolutely ridiculous. If my battery is dead, what is that, like 80 fucking dollars? Awesome. Christ.

Why, why, why, can't I ever have an easy go of it? Everything was working out totally fucking perfectly in terms of exams and ISUs, but no, of course that can't happen. That NEVER FUCKING HAPPENS.

Sorry about the rant. Sorry I can't call, Sweetie. I love you.

This is the story of the girl who loves you...

Tue, 06 Jan 2009 04:44:34 GMT

So I was going to make a very long, detailed anniversary post, but when I wrote it out it became a very long, detailed, personal, gush-fest.

Sweetheart, a year doesn't seem like a long time, and in the long run it isn't. But when I think back to our trials and triumphs (and I'm not being dramatic) I am so proud of both of us. I don't think many couples would have survived what we survived. And you know, we're so much stronger because of it. When I said 'yes,' I knew I was walking into one of the most difficult situations of my young life, and I don't regret it. You made all of the heartbreak and tears worth it in the end, every single time. You made me crazy last year my dear, but you were also the only one, the ONLY one, that kept me sane.

Remember the Christopher this time last year? That boy that had been admitted into the hospital? That boy who would later become self-destructive, clingy, insecure, and frightfully sad? I remember him, but he is most certainly not you. You took care of yourself in the end, and you've come so far. You are independent, with your own life and friends. You make your own decisions, and are ready to move on with your life, with me, into the future. I'm so proud of you, darling.

I love you. I can say that with confidence and security. Really, a year is nothing. But if we look at that year in relation to us, it was the most incredible, loving, satisfying, and insane years I've ever had. Thank you for that.

And there's nothing we can really do to stop it.

Sun, 04 Jan 2009 19:30:22 GMT

This year… has quite possibly been my best year in a long time. It wasn’t tainted with death or tragedy. It was a year of immeasurable growth for me and new beginnings. I can’t say that this year has been perfect; it hasn’t been with out its share of pain and conflict. But I can say that I haven’t been this happy in a long time.

New beginnings refers to Christopher… because this time last year we weren’t dating. In fact, halfway between Monday and Tuesday will be the exact time of the start of our relationship. It started out as one of the strangest relationships I could imagine. With his mental condition and my complete naiveté we made for quite a pair. I was NEVER looking for a relationship. I couldn’t even imagine myself in one. Then this happened, out of nowhere, and definitely became the highlight of my entire year. I had the insecurity that I always do in relationships but… that withered away without me even noticing. And the time just kind of flew by… and here we are. We’ve already gone through incredibly challenging times. In fact, we are happier now in our relationship than we were a year ago.

And I’m not saying that he himself hasn’t given me another share of headaches. There were times I cried myself to sleep over that boy. There were times I wasn’t sure I was going to make it. The things he did to himself that I had no control over very nearly drove me insane. His neediness, clinginess, insecurity… but he’s the only one out of EVERYone that kept me sane. Despite all of this, he comforted me, supported me, and held my head while I cried. We were a team, and neither of us could back out because of our love for each other.

It also refers to ridding myself of Brandi. We had some great times, she and I, but it took a real relationship for me to see that she and I didn’t have one. I realized a lot of things this year, and one of those things was that I didn’t trust her, and never have. I miss our good times, but I know now that they were always tainted with this… superficiality. Our friendship would never progress. She didn’t like Christopher. It was him or her. So I rid myself of the painful relationship, the fake one, and now… I’m so much happier.

It also refers to Christopher going to university, because even though that has more to do with him than myself it certainly impacted me a lot. After being inseparable, he was moving away. This definitely became the second chapter of our relationship, because it marked the moment he was on the mend from his mental condition and a new semi-long term relationship.

All of the highlights center on Christopher, and really… I’m sure you can understand that. Why wouldn’t all the highlights center on the object of new love? It came as a surprise, and it’s lasted for both of us. A lot of the lowlights stem from our relationship: Brandi’s jealousy, my mother’s new arbitrary rules and dislike for our relationship. But the highs are so much more intense, and really, so much more lasting. Because this year, I’m moving out. Those rules won’t apply.

The last real highlight is my decision on a major. Drama and Improv this year have been incredible. We have never done as well as we did this year. And the two plays that we did: The Worst High School Play in the World and …and Stuff… helped me to see how much I love drama and how I really could give my life to it. Although I still have reservations, I think those mostly stem from a lack of confidence and worry for the future.

Anyway, basically what I’m saying is that Drama and Improv rocked. And that Christopher made my year the best it’s ever been. And if that’s the truth, then 2009 will be better, because I’ll be virtually living with Christopher and I will be going to school for Drama. It’s perfect.

Happy New Year! Merry Christmas!

Sun, 04 Jan 2009 17:50:24 GMT

So, as it seems I very rarely use this place anymore, I figured I might as well add a little update.

Christmas was pretty good this year for me. Got to see loads of family that I usually don't get to, and some old friends that mean a lot to me. My brother is going to buy me a new lens for my camera, so that I'm not stuck with only a telephoto lens. Other than that I got a whole lot of pyjamas, some Korean groceries, and some delicious bath stuff. The snow in Michigan was ridiculous; there was literally 5 feet of snow, untouched. We had to drive through the snow storm.

Hung out at Lauren's after that, which was awesome. Christopher, Lauren and I went for a walk across her property to the gravel pit, and we did make-believe on the way! If you don't know already, I totally love make-believe. So we were WWII soldiers (or, more accurately, Christopher was a gruff soldier who died and then he assumed the identity of a French revolutionist, Lauren was a pilot, and I was a helpless nurse) who had crashed our plane and were trying to reach safety. And then later we were Gundam characters on an alien planet trying to find our Gundam. And then after that Lauren and I were Russian soldiers who had caught Christopher, a spy, and were taking him to our overlord. Anyway, it was totally fucking awesome. We died in each story line though. Much chaos ensued. Until Christopher made me fall in my face in the snow... then I killed him with my machine gun.

New Years was awesome. Deanna's mom had my parents over too though, and that was really. freaking. weird. I definitely still got drunk, but I drank more steadily. Christopher and I came armed though... as he put it, we had "enough alcohol to sink a small ship." I got to see Lucas, my sober buddy, which was awesome, and... and many pictures were taken that I hope won't go farther than those cameras. All in all, it was an excellent night.

Oh! I also went boxing sale shopping! New jeans, and a new coat from Lauren. Very, very cool.

Now I'm staring to remember that exams are coming, and my drama ISU is due this week. Awesome. I sort of started... but I can't seem to make any headway on it. Oh well... I'll get through it. I always do! Next semester will be awesome, if only because it's one semester closer to the end of high school and the start of university. I'm so ready to get out of this school, this town, and this house.

Speaking of university, auditions are coming up FAST. My UofT audition could be as early as February. York is in March, and I'm waiting to hear back from Ryerson. But man, talk about stress. I'm so afraid I won't get accepted ANYwhere, and will have to stay here for another year. In retrospect, there's absolutly no way I could have taken a year off and travelled-- not if I want to do drama. But I keep reminding myself that UofT will, at the very least, tell me to minor in drama. At least I'll get to go SOMEwhere. That's what's most important right now. The audtions shouldn't be hard... only the Ryerson one, in which I have to have two monologues prepared, a short essay, and a 3 minute play. UofT is just a workshop, and York asks me to share an experience (which is just hilarious). But still, I'm really stressing over it.

Christopher and I went and saw The Curious Case of Benjamin Button, which was excellent. I highly recommend it. It was super sad, but I like sad movies. I gave it a 9.5, and I think Christopher gave it a 9...?

Anyway, I had the best Christmas break that I've ever had. I really don't want to go back to school. I'm so glad I have Drama now, when I also have a spare and peer tutoring, which is a glorified spare. Drama gets so intense.

And.... tomorrow is the fifth! I have to work, which is absolute shite, but it's going to be our anniversary. : D

Wed, 24 Dec 2008 05:52:26 GMT

Another meme that I saved for 2007, but never did. Again, I suck at formatting. Sorry!

What did you do in 2008 that you'd never done before?

Got into a serious relationship!

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
New Years Resolutions are dumb for dumb people.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?

Maybe an aunt? Don’t really know.

4. Did anyone close to you die?

Not this year.

5. What countries did you visit?

U.S.A. That’s all.

6. What would you like to have in 2008 that you lacked in 2008?
More freedom! More adventure! More not being home!!!!

7. What date from 2008 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
January 5^th. The day Christopher and I started dating!

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?

I suppose it sounds kind of silly, but committing to a serious relationship would be it. I directed a play, and I’m proud of that, and I helped to bring our production to the Townhall, and I shook myself of a very superficial relationship, but the fact that I’ve found someone who continues to love me, to fascinate me, to stick with me… I’m pretty pleased with that.

9. What was your biggest failure?

Letting a dead relationship drag itself out to a very bitter and volatile end. If I were smart I would have done what I had to do much earlier. Oh well.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?

Not really, no.

11. What was the best thing you bought?

I didn’t buy my cameras, but I love them. Uhm… I think probably the ring I bought for Christopher for Christmas. I love that ring. I’m wearing it now. And the Deathcab tickets that I surprised Christopher with. And his Flogging Molly tickets. I guess that’s all though. I saved more this year.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
Lauren’s for being super awesome and like, becoming more and more cool all the time. I don’t want to say something cheesy like “Oh, you grew up so much this year!” but you seem to be more relaxed and stuff, and that’s pretty cool.

Christopher for loving me.

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?

Uhm… I’m not… going to say names. But… anyone can ask me and I can tell you confidentially. Definitely Graeme for “Improv bullshit camp” and Aidan for fucking the team over during competition.

14. Where did most of your money go?

Food and transit.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Deathcab, Heatskores, Lauren’s bash, Deanna’s New Years that hasn’t happened yet. And Stuff, Worst High School Play. Applying to University.

16. What song will always remind you of 2008?
It is love -Hellogoodbye

Follow You Into the Dark- Deathcab

First Day of my Life- Bright Eyes

Brutah Ska- Heatskores

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. Happier or sadder?

Happier! Definitely!

ii. Richer or poorer?

Richer. Although I haven’t checked my funds since buying presents.

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?

Writing more, I guess. Reading more. Watching more movies.

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?

Wasting time on dead friendships.

20. How will you be spending Christmas?

With all of my family.

22. Did you fall in love in 2008?

Yes, yes I did.

23. How many one-night stands?
Nope.

24. What was your favourite TV program?

America’s Next Top Model, although I never finished it.

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?

Uhm… Hate, no. Dislike… yes. A few.

26. What was the best book you read?

Well, I didn’t do too much reading. Instead, I will compare plays, and that would probably be Waiting for Godot by Samuel Beckett.

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?

Heatskores. I don’t think I found all that much this year. A lot more last year. They all kind of blended together. OH, but I do love that Rilo Kiley song the Dee plays! Especially when we sing at the top of our lungs on her living room floor drunk as fuck.

28. What did you want and get?

I got everything I could have asked for, but never thought to.

30. What was your favorite film of this year?

Didn’t do too much watching of movies, hate to say.

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?

Eighteen. Hung out with Lauren and Christopher. It snowed. Other than the snow it was awesome.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?

Uhm… this is hard… Uhm… Shit. Less snow? Oh! Less conflict at home! YES. And less conflict with old friends that make you hate yourself.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008?

I always want more clothes, but no matter what I throw on the first things I find. Shirt, hoodie, jeans, stud belt.

34. What kept you sane?

Christopher. For all the crazy times we had this year, some good and some bad, you always balanced it out.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?

Uh… heh. I lost a lot of my fanaticism this year.

36. What political issue stirred you the most?

American election. Canadian coalition. New driving laws.

37. Who did you miss?

Chris M.

38. Who was the best new person you met?

Uhm… Christopher, because I met him in a different way.

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008:

Trust whatever you believe in, or nothing at all. Things just happen for you when you’re not looking. Pay attention to your friendships; some of them are more rotten than you think. Appreciate your friends.

Wed, 24 Dec 2008 02:43:56 GMT

LJ cut isn't working for me, so I am instead spamming your F-page.

End of Year Meme

1. Where did you begin 2008?
At Lauren’s with Christopher!

2. What was your status by Valentines Day?
With Christopher. It was awesome.

3. Were you in school anytime this year?
About ten months of it, or thereabouts.

4. Did you have to go to the hospital?
Not for emergencies.

5. Did you have any encounters with the police?
Other than the usual “Let’s move along, kids,” not at all.

6. Where did you go on vacation?
Went to Maryland to see my brother and cousin, and New York in May wit Lauren and the art class. Both were awesome.

7. What did you purchase that was over £100?
I’ve been saving up. Don’t think I bought anything big…

8. Did you know anybody who got married?
My cousin! She was so pretty! And Christopher’s cousin! But I missed the wedding. Only went for the Jack and Jill.

9. Did you know anybody who passed away?
I don’t… think so. Not this year.

10. Did you move anywhere?
Heck no.

11. What sporting events did you attend?
I saw Katie practice karate once. Does that count?

12. What concerts/shows did you go to?

HEATSKORES! DEATHCAB! Those are the ones I remember. There were freaking awesome as shit, too.

13. Describe your birthday.
TOO. MUCH. SNOW. But it was cool. Went and hung out with ma girl Lauren and Christopher.

14. What is the ONE thing you thought you would not do, but did, in 2008?
Got involved in a serious relationship. Didn’t see that one coming.

15. What have been your favourite moments?

Laying in bed with Christopher, hanging out with Lauren, discussing stuff with Dee, drinking with all our friends… Times with my friends, really. Lauren’s party! Drama Class Grade 11 and 12: And Stuff! And those nights in New York, that was sweet shit. Really, there have been so many.

16. Any new additions to your family?
I think I have a new cousin maybe.

17. What was your best month?
Uhm…. January! And…. November!

18. Who has been your best drinking buddy?

Christopher of course. Lauren, Deanna, Claire when she gets going… the thing is, when I get to drinking, I don’t really know what other people are doing. I do love drinking with my friends though. Lauren’s party was one the best I’ve ever been to, if not THE best.

19. Made new friends?

Heatskores people! Yeah, I guess some. It’d be weird to not make ANY, right? Christopher’s new friends, some new Drama kids…

20. Favourite Night out?

Lauren’s party. Nights out with Christopher in the freezing cold, and nights out with Lauren, Cato, and Christopher in the freezing cold. New York nights out.

21. Other than home, where did you spend most of your time?

Lauren’s, definitely. I love Lauren’s!

22. Have you lost any friends this year?

Pretty sure not.

23. Change your hairstyle?
Sort of, not really.

24. Have any car accidents?
Nope.

25. How old did you turn this year?
Eighteen.

26. Do you have a New Years resolution?
Those are dumb.
27. Do anything embarrassing?
Well, yeah. Can’t think of anything offhand though.

28. Buy anything from eBay?
Never do.

29. Get married or divorced?
That’d be weird.

30. Get hit on?
Less so this year, what with the steady boyfriend and new employment. But yes, of course I did. I have tits.

31. Been snowboarding?
I hate snow. Fucking hate it. NO.

32. Did you get sick this year?
Am right now, but never seriously.

33. Are you happy to see 2008 go?
Yeah, but I liked it a lot. It kicked 2007 right out of the water. I love 2008, but I’m SO excited for ’09. University, Toronto, new friends, new life… Hells yes.

34. Been naughty or nice?

Nice, definitely. Grew more of a backbone though.

35. What are you looking forward to most in 2009?

Already answered this, but University, Toronto, being away from home, shedding myself of superficial friendships, Drama major, Prom, winning the CIG. It’ll be a good one.

Sun, 21 Dec 2008 05:52:32 GMT

Where are all the end of the year memes? I want to do one this year.

Ugh. I think I'm getting sick. That suuuucks.

Thu, 18 Dec 2008 03:59:29 GMT

Man, today was a big deal!

Deanna, Claire and I had play.
Lauren had Reach tournament.
And now Deanna has Avenged!

Yay so much fun!

Wed, 17 Dec 2008 22:18:00 GMT

So I've totally been thinking about this damn play like, all freaking day, and not really having anyone to talk to about it (since my boyfriend has mysteriously disappeared...?) I think I'll just stick it on the interwebs.

I've been stressing on it, and hating on it, and stressing my hate on it, that I just got to the point that I wasn't having ANY fun. But, that being said, I totally worked hard on getting my character, especially because I was playing a guy, right? And the thing is, I think I got it! But I didn't start really understanding him until like, a couple days before and even during the show. So that was shitty.

Drama kids, you know how there's that one monologue that you just practice the shit out of so that you say when you aren't even paying attention? Well, that was my first monologue, and I had that shit down. Of course, I needed a prompt on it, my first ever #@%$# prompt... I guess it was because I was so stressed out about it. After that I convinced myself to have fun, and I think I did a lot better.

Our play, being two acts, was super long, so we cut about an eighth of it. But halfway through Act II, we realized that there is basically NO FUCKING TIME. So there goes my last scenes that I memorized, and everyone else's of course. We cut right to the big climax and the final monologue, which was cut short anyway.

Now, you do what you have to do, right? That's what theatre is. But... after losing all those scenes, and not really getting into my character the way I wanted to... I've had like zero closure. Just, suddenly, it was over. And we had no time for feedback or anything, and I didn't see anyone until lunch time to like, recap it, so I've had this... anxiety in the back of my head, you know? As if I still have to worry about it, but I don't. It just... doesn't feel like it's over! Which sucks. Once we started performing it, I really like it.

Whatever. In all, we did pretty well.

Tue, 16 Dec 2008 01:10:22 GMT

Went Christmas shopping and I have something for everybody!!!

Well, almost everybody. I'm finishing the rest up in town. Usually I am not nearly this good at Christmas shopping, but I was so fucking productive today!

I'm so much more excited about Christmas now. I love shopping for other people.

Mon, 15 Dec 2008 04:59:46 GMT

I am so not in the Christmas spirit this year. Like, usually I spend so much money on presents and start weeks in advance and get super excited about it... but not so much this year. Which is too bad, because it's the first Christmas in ages that the whole family will be together, and the first Christmas I get to have with Christopher, but... I'm just not feeling it. So, today, to try and get me in the spirit...

Christopher and I made Christmas Cookies!

I mean, cookies with a capital C. Major cookies.

FYI: T=Tablespoon.

The thing is, I already knew that. But I still fucked up the recipe, so we had to triple it. TRIPLE IT. That's nine cups of flour! I had to mix it all up with my hands and it was pretty doughy. So we have about a zillion cookies... we did about 10 cookie sheets.

Had to mix up the icing, right? We bought white icing, and then mixed it into red, green, purple, and yellow. So when I got to the yellow, I dropped a shitload of the dye in. But it was like, this really gross brown color, and I was like WTF? And then it didn't even dye it yellow! It just mixed right in! So I complained to mom about maybe this thing has an expiry date...?

But it was vanilla extract.

Tomorrow I'm going Christmas shopping. Hopefully this stuff will get me more excited. But it was fun today, making cookies with that kid, and trying to distract him from his damn computer games. Pictures will follow (on Facebook).

Wed, 10 Dec 2008 04:14:04 GMT

www.alaska.net/~clund/e_djublonskopf/FlatWhyFlat.htm

This is funny.

She has a dream

Tue, 09 Dec 2008 23:01:42 GMT

So, I have all week at home because I don't work until Friday, so I should do some homework and be productive, right?

I've finished EVERYthing that I can do for my peer tutoring PORTFOLIO.
I've memorized all my lines.
I have no Politics homework.

Like, I feel like there's something I should be doing here. Is there something I should be doing?

Also, this Friday there is an counter-protest to the godhatesfags.com protest. I think it's from 7-8, but seeing as that is like, the only day I work this weekend, I won't be able to go. Other people? Go? www.facebook.com/home.php#/event.php is the Facebook address, you can go to www.godhatesfags.com as well.

Thu, 20 Nov 2008 13:24:25 GMT

Totally slept in and I'm now running late. Oh well, getting a ride with my Momar. Last night was so pretty... I love snow at night, it makes everything looks so eerie. I don't like snow, but I sometimes like it... when it's pretty and I don't mind being cold.

Anyway, Ex-Night tonight, and it's going to be a bit crazy. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't worried, but I'm also really excited. Either way we'll have fun!

Tue, 18 Nov 2008 00:48:59 GMT

Just spent the better part of two hours updating my photo albums on Facebook. Seriously high speed is way too addictive.

Mon, 17 Nov 2008 23:58:19 GMT

Asked my mom what she thought about the conspiracy theory about the terrorist attack in New York, and she pretty much went on this huge rant about how it`s not possible. And I mean huge rant. If I didn`t know what she was talking about, I would have considered getting her a sedative. Apparently she feels very adamantly about this.

Drama Night + Other Stuff

Sun, 16 Nov 2008 23:31:55 GMT

So this is a bit late, but... HOLY SHIT! Drama Night was a success! The feelings of euphoria are starting to wear off, but I still can't believe how well it went. It went better than I could have even hoped for. And I'm so pleased because every year I watch someone else direct some play, and I see it, well... fall apart... and I always said to myself that I could do better. I could pull it off. And I did! Well, I have to share some glory with Jory and honestly? The whole thing would have crashed and burned if it weren't for Claire, but STILL! I'm really happy about it.

Sometimes I really question my motives for choosing Drama and Theatre as my career choice. Do I actually like it *that* much? Am I actually even any good at it? Well, most of you already know I'm paranoid and insecure to the extreme, so this shouldn't be too much of a surprise. But I'm always questioning myself when it comes to drama. But on Wednesday night, hiding backstage and silent as a mouse, the adrenaline was huge and my excitement was incredible. Every time the audience laughs or the actors act out the perfect bit of staging... I'm so happy, and so proud, and just so... exhilarated. And on stage, it's different, because they're looking at you, they're listening to you, and it's terrifying but it's incredible and it's soooo much fun. And it reminds me that I love drama and theatre.

So, yeah. Great night. Great results. I'm proud of everyone involved. It was a stressful, manic couple of weeks, but this end result made it worth it.

Also, I need pyjamas. If anyone's looking for something to buy me for Christmas, not that I want you to or expect you to, I need pyjamas.

Crazy couple of days. With the cast party, and Dee's awesome 17th, it's been pretty fun. Or, bouncing between fun and weird. I was reminded of how much I love dancing, partying, drinking, and my improv team. Hard lesson, the last one, but I learned it... And I got to spend all that time with Christopher, who brought me roses and chocolate hedgehogs after the play.

Also Deanna, you are awesome, and I love you. Wicked party, and I'm sorry I didn't make you a card. I will make one for you very very soon.

New plays tomorrow. (I think.) Does anyone know if Chiz is picking plays and casts for us or do we get to pick our own? Weird.

Wed, 12 Nov 2008 12:30:21 GMT

Doesn't even feel like it's tonight...

But it is! And it's going to be great!

I'll make a more detailed post about this later... but I feel so good about it. And Christopher is coming to watch!

Fri, 07 Nov 2008 02:48:02 GMT

Vacuumed Eeeeeverything! Go me! Living room, kitchen, entryway...

Well, except under my beds. But shit does that take work...

And now I'm writing director's notes, and catching up on my ever challenging peer tutoring homework. Oh! And I ate this delicious ramen noodle Korean spicy thing that set my tongue on fire but was sooo good!

I miss painting, but I made good use of being home. :)

Wed, 05 Nov 2008 05:42:33 GMT

I think Christopher is getting jealous of Obama. I just made a whole thread about the bastard, didn't I? Well Sweetheart, I promise that if you decide to run for President I will back you 100%!!!

As it is, I love you so much, and happy 10 monthiversary. (I just realized it now!)

I'm sleepy, so now I'm off to bed. ^.^

Wed, 05 Nov 2008 04:01:02 GMT

Obama won Pennsylvaniaaaaaaaaaaa!

Tue, 04 Nov 2008 12:22:49 GMT

Happy birthday Lucie!